What to do with the time that is given to us?

Living on this planet can be such a challenge. What is it Gandolf said in Lord of the Rings in reply to Frodo's wish that the darkness had not happened in his time? "So do I, and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."

Recently I was in conversation with a dear friend about the struggle to embrace this existence when it seems that all my cellular being wants to do is break free and rejoin the energetic source that it arose from. How do I live with ease in the world when my daily experience in this human form is interpreted by me as a piercing grief; a result of being separate from the whole? I am certain it is all a huge misunderstanding.

So what if, what if I turned it all around. What if, instead of thinking of it as this aggregate of energy that is separate, with the ultimate goal of reuniting, what if this collection of vibration was to figure out how to experience the whole/channel the whole through the vessel that it inhabits (currently called Adina) and thereby have no need to crave the dissolution of the body in order to connect?

Wrapping my head around that just leads to a big WHOA! (And a headache).

But just sitting and allowing what that could mean to flow through every cell in my body? Liberating.